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I have made a date with some one - whom I will call or classify as an "ex" all though not really around long enough to be an ex per say. ( but i tried once years ago and he's still around)
None the less, this ex has asked me repeatedly to join him away from his messy abode and take a weekend to get to know him better (trip). So, finally I have agreed.
We are supposed to leave next Friday the 22nd of Jan. 2005. He is supposed to surprise me with an idea of where to go. *My dilemma, why did I even tell him yes? *Shakes head*
I confuse myself. I do not want him and clearly know that he is not for me nor do I want him. I could be bored or I could just be insane. Either way, I am going.
Not happy with my choice but glad to be getting away for a few days with out having to stress.
It’s in his hands. Although, I should be stressing being that I don't trust his hands. Literally - nor on me... (now that’s a point to ponder) hmmmmm...
I know he expects some sort of action while we are away. He feels he can win me if he shows me his feelings for me. I have been nothing but honest with him.
I don’t like how he lives, I don’t like his cleanliness, I don’t like his smell, I don’t like his lack of ambition or passion for life. Yet, here he is asking me to go away with him, to "spark some sort of, of, of, well something or other...heck I don’t know what he is thinking.
I am not Cinderella or sleeping beauty, I am fully awake and do not need a prince to save me (he lacks the prince thing anyway)
*sigh*
I just don’t know why I am going besides maybe I am bored. OR could be the lack of sex I have had in the last year. (yes, I do play it safe)
So, another question, how much alcohol will I be drinking before I let him touch me?
Crap! The situations I get myself into sometimes. I could turn around and say no, I know I really should.
Maybe I will
Than again,
Maybe I won't.
For those of you that know me, yes I have written about him in the past. *ugh
Its been some time since i last posted -
Not to much has changed since. All though i did finally finish my classes and heading on to some others here shortly.
Still in love with BRAD PITT! Duh!
Not having the crush feeling I had explained about before.
I knew it was a passing faze as it has happened to me before. Actually I am starting not
to like this person all to much, now that i am getting to know him a little better.
None the less, love and me are lost for the most part. Have to just believe that one day it will find me.
Still a neo addict allthough i haven't found much time to play lately.
So, again not much has changed but just wanted to write a short something so that you all know
I am still around - i do read a lot of others allthough I myself have not written much. Feel free to say hello. I will be sure to hit ya back!
Well, I feel like I have been on a marigoround for the last few days. My head has been spinnin, my stomache feels quizzey, my eyes keep burning. And I am still trying to get the last of my homework finished before the end of the class next week.
Dont know what happened woke up feeling a bit slugish this morning. Drove two hours to work which usually takes me 45 minutes. Today it decides to rain and everyone forgets how to drive in it. So there for my drive was more hectic than usual. Not to mension the weird feeling I was starting to get at 6am driving to work. By the time I reached my destination i threw up all over the parking lot. Gained my composure and went in to tell them I was heading back home. Laid in the car for about 30 minutes than drove myself home where in turn i countiued to be sick and try to heal myself. Did have to go to school too. Slept for a few hours - than drove myself to school to take a test. That grade was a fashionable D. I cant do much about that now. Being i was so sick i am lucky to have passed it at all. Drove home after that slept an hour now I am here. AND now i am off again to go back to bed as my head is telling me with emes thudding that it needs more sleep to feel better. SO, that was my day and my round and round on the marigoround of life. Be well all. As I hope to be soon.
OK well I believe that this in all will help my day/ night a bit better to get to look into the eyes of the most handsome "est" man alive! Even at 40 'ol Brad has it Rockin!!!!! Ok, ok, you are allowed to look too just dont drool to much on my page here and if you do please clean it up. I dont want the effects of crusty white goo all over my Bradie Babies Beautiful Face! Well, I did say I have a facination...you will see more of Brad as the urge hits me to see more of him too! OH YEA him/BRAD and Jennifer Aniston came to WA and bought land on Bainbridge Island!!! WOOHHOOO wonder if they will ever be seen out and about here locally??????? I guess from the news paper article the people on the island are a bit sour for them moving there or buying land or something of that sort. It said something about the people there dont want the environment to change because we now have some high society peeps movin in. HOW STUPID DOES THAT SOUND? Sounds like jealousy to me.
Oh and this is a fact, being it was not in the Enquirer but in the local Seattle Times!!! WOOHOO!!!
Hoopla is also supposed to be that she is now prego with the Pitts Seed!!! What a beautiful baby they will have if true!
I will be up all night studing!!!
Ok, well I am in two classes. Had my terminology class tonight and all of a sudden I am like, "what the hell did I miss?" Everyone else seems to be grasping the meanings and seperations and me, I am in a mix of medical terms that I am just drowning in!!!! *ok, I could yell for help, most would I know. But me, I have so much *STUPID* pride going on that I just cant stand it. I dont want to ask for fear of looking stupid. Yet, we have a test next Tuesday that I am sure to look stupid about after its over!!! Go figure!
I better get my pride in check but i feel so out of place... all these young girls, or either I have the older ladies that have allready been in medical situations.
*UGH! what to do what to do...I guess its time to get off of here and go study some...or a lot... tata for now...I am sure I will be up all night trying to get a grip on some of this stuff...tata!
Well, I am starting to get Comfy...with my new class. It is quite hard but I have managed to keep myself in the class and trying. SO, I guess that is good for something. Today we had a test. First one too. I got a C :( so sad that I didnt get higher. But at least I didnt fail. I didnt get a chance to study for it with work and sleep deprivation and what not setting in. So I guess you could say I aced the test!!! With the knowledge that sunk in from just listening in class lol...I will get by and I will make it. I just need more sleep is all. It does get hard when I am going to work than to school than home (as I am now) I wind down for an hour than off to bed again with a short time to sleep being up at 4 am again. None the less I will shorten this now by stopping my fingers from hitting the keyboard. I am tired going to bed here in a moment.
I also mensioned before that I have a horrible
facination with BRAD PITT! I will be adding a
photo again soon here.
CAN YOU BELIEVE THE MAN IS 40 years old
allready!!! HECK NO not with that beautiful
smile and body!!! He is going to age like
Sean Connery I think. Graceful and handsome
to the end!
Well, I started school the other day. It is not at all what I remember it being. I am taking Medical Billing and allready after a few days I am wanting to go AWOL! Well, after a few more days I will let ya know how it goes. So far one teacher is very perticular yet very nice the other class, I like the teacher yet, I do not like the way she teaches. You mostly teach yourself...thats my terminology class. I hope and pray I get a passing grade out of this...I am going to try but my spirits are down right now. PLUS with my daughter straying the way she is it hurst sooo bad I am a ball of nerves and thats also no good at work. I put on my happy face though its an act. I make it through day to day but i feel as though i want it all to stop, but if it stops than i would have failed and I hate to fail...so I keep trying and stick it out...I will update more as the class goes....
CRUSHIN - WOW can't believe I am even putting this here in site of others that know me!
Sometimes when you see or meet some one you get this sort of crush thing when you see them. I can't believe I have this going on right now.
I can't give to many details as some that I know may call me out on this. AND WE WOULDN'T WANT THAT :) But none the less, I dont want this person nor am i interested in anything other than the fact that he gives me butterflies every so often...hahaha its so fricken weird but it shall pass...it was all about seeing him in his savillian clothes and out of uniform i think is what did it. hahaha have to laugh at myself!
This is so crazy i need to quit,,, yet for the moment I just don't want to - hhahaha :)
NO GUESSING FOLKS THAT KNOW ME - cause...
"I'm not gonna teeellllll !"
I just had to get it out!
Well long but yet busy day at work. Nothing exciting going on.
Kind of upset at Bev for saying that I had plans on leaving work(job) - but i guess if your going to school and you all of a sudden put in a change of hours people will know that thas what you plan on doing sooner or later. Just wish she would have kept her mouth shut about it. I guess being a manager she feels she needs to tell anything that she hears. TWO - I SOOOO FORGOT - DONT SAY THINGS TO PEOPLE AT WORK CAUSE THEY WILL STAB YOU - DAMB, THOUGHT I LEARNED THIS ALLREADY!
Well none the less, talked to my friend Andre today. He brought up that we should go to Seaside for a visit. I thought this was neat. I mean we have been friends for about 7 years now. I used to date/intimately with him but we are now for many years just friends. He suggested though that we take a two day stay down there. Maybe this would be something nice.
(platonicly) I just might. Supposed to call me back Saturday as we are all gonna hang out this weekend with others...so, we will talk more on it than.
Oh, yes we dated back in the day and remained friends he has been married and divorced since or what not and so have I. We just have never lost contact and go out once in a while and have a few drinks. I think we have what some would like to have...being we can talk and bullshit even spite the past. But none the less why I am dragging on about this is beyond me.
I am hoping to get some stuff downloaded today. From kazaa resurrection and work on some graphics...so let me get off of here.
Say hello if you pass by and read me...
I was on a search tonight - just surfing around... When all of a sudden I came across this!!!
Ok, ok, ok, I do have an infatuation with BRAD PITT - no doubt about it!
But as I was looking around the net I saw this and he is wearing BOXERS
none the less!!! I love a man in boxers! It just makes them that
much more sexy!
Come on HOLLA if you agree with me!
NOT TO NOT MENSION - HE IS SOOO FINE ALL THE TIME NO MATTER IF HE IS
DRESSED UP OR DOWN! :)
e that this in all will help my day/ night a bit better to get to look into the eyes of the most handsome "est" man alive! Even at 40 'ol Brad has it Rockin!!!!! 
